Long story short, I’ve had a feeling like a lump in my throat for months and months, everyone I spoke to about it kept telling me it was stress related, but I could feel it all the time, even though I’m not stressed all of the time (a lot of the time, yes, but sometimes I’m actually chill 😬).
…anyway, I had a thyroid scan on Monday morning, just to be sure to put my mind at rest, and it turns out there is a lump in my throat, on my thyroid, for real.
I have 3 smaller nodules and 1 larger one at the front that I can feel when I swallow, so that explains it.
I can very much feel it, I’m not imagining it. So I guess that’s good news, in a way.
Thankfully it’s NOT cancer.
He said I can leave it be if I want, if it’s not causing too much of a problem. Or have it removed if it’s causing problems.
I shall be taking the easier of these two options thank you very much. I am a self confessed coward after all
I bloody knew I had a lump in there though. I said to the radiographer “I’m not going mad then?!”
And he replied “no…well, I don’t know in general, but at least not about this sensation!” 😬😂
I am a fucking idiot for leaving it this long, it’s been since well before Christmas. I knew I could feel something.
If in doubt get it checked!! Anything!
I’m kicking myself for not getting mine looked at sooner. I should know better, I really should, it was reckless to let it go on.
I just wanted to believe what people were saying - that it was stress related.
But I knew I could feel a lump when I swallowed, which simply isn’t normal. I should have been more cautious.
I usually am, but I am absolutely fed up with health concerns.
I had all those little skin cancers treated last year, and the boob pain checked, I’m constantly paranoid about getting type 2 diabetes for some reason. It’s so draining, not just for me but for those round me too. It must be horrible for them.
Sadly, I don’t have the privilege of peace of mind anymore, once you’ve cancer-ed you never ever know peace again.
So this is a reminder to you that anything odd or out of the ordinary does need checking.
What good will leaving it do? Absolutely none, and in fact it could do great harm.
Be aware of how you feel normally, and do regular assessments of your health. Is anything out of the ordinary? Go get it looked at straight away.
Better safe than sorry ❤️🩹🙏🏼
Anyway, on to other stuff;
I’ve not been doing much of late. I’m getting close to my 8 weekly B12 shot, so I tend to start feeling like a deflating balloon as my energy levels drop.
Plus I’m on antibiotics for a UTI. Nothing new there.
A few years ago I was getting them constantly, and my GP put me on Vagifem, a pessary form of HRT. It is meant to plump up and revive damaged tissue. But for me personally it wasn’t making any difference. Maybe because my issues are compounded by radiotherapy, damage during AP resection surgery, and the result of instant menopause due to my ovaries being removed during the APR.
I was so down and miserable about my situation, I made a comment to that effect on a post by Doctor Louise Newsome - The Menopause Doctor on instagram.
Anyway, a lady from America commented on my comment, to say she’d had the same issue, but her gynaecologist had put her on Intrarosa pessary, and it had completely changed her life.
So I took this information to my private GP, she hadn’t ever heard of it, she googled it there and then, discovered that she could prescribe it for me and did so.
I had been merrily using it for years without any problems. So much so I thought I was cured, so genius that I am I stopped using it…so that’s how I ended up back on antibiotics.
I stopped using the stuff that was helping me, humans do that all the time, for some reason.
I feel fine for the most part. Just frustrated that it happened again.
This lot of antibiotics were causing some considerable constipation, so I decided to try and cure it in a more natural way.
So I consumed 3 packs of fiery pickled beetroots, and I can confirm, it does the trick. Only, it’s not an exact science, so you can’t tell when it’s going to actually work its magic.
We were heading into London for a friend’s birthday on Saturday, I asked Chris to give me his opinion on two different outfits I had lined up.
One was all off whites - with trousers, one was all black - with a floaty dress.
He said as we were going out for a curry the black dress was probably the safer choice.
And boy was he right!
…the beetroots decided this was the best time to work. So as I sat eating, I was emptying just as fast.
If I had had the trousers on, I would have had to go home. There was just too much.
My hernia was agony, my bag was filling fast. It was not the best time for me physically, but I was enjoying myself with my friends very much.
So I have to just suck it up and carry on. Because the only other option would be stay home and miss out, and I’m simply not prepared to miss a single second of life!
I have a bag on, I’m good to go. Is it ideal to be pouring poop out on a lovely day out ? No, probably not.
But it does beat sitting at home watching the world carry on without me.
Even with throbbing hernia ache and a full to bursting bag on, life is fun when you have friends you love.
Dress from Nobody’s Child, Shoes from Valentino Rockstuds, Phone bag from Smythsons.
I’ve never been more grateful to be in a floaty dress.
Our group of friends love to hide from each other. We do it all the time, it’s childish and silly and I bloody love it! 😂
So when Tanya and I came out of the toilets and they were all missing, so we did what any sensible person/persons would do, we checked the cupboards nearby, and then decided to teach them a lesson, so we ordered coconut lassi’s at the bar…
…we really thought ourselves rather clever…until Kim came back down to the basement to ask what on earth we were doing because the others had paid the bill for lunch and were waiting for us outside the restaurant, so not in fact hiding at all! 😂
Still, we had a lovely Lassi 🥛
As it was Tanya’s birthday, we let her decide the course of the day, so we hit a few shops, and stopped for snacks. It was a fantastic day.
I’m so glad I had a dress on. It meant I could carry on with the rest of them. Even if I have to carry a dead weight on my abdomen.
It was such a fun day out. We love our little family of friends.
The next day I felt drained, like a completely deflated balloon, I had no energy at all. So we had a chilled out morning. Then headed to our local shopping centre to finish off Chris’s holiday clothes shopping, then came home and watched movies with these two.
All in all it was a very good weekend. If you were ever wondering how I spend my days for the most part, it’s like this…
Then Monday I went for the thyroid scan.
I was meeting a friend for lunch after, but she had to cancel at the last minute. So I took myself back to the shopping outlet to finish off my holiday wardrobe, which I have now done. I’m really happy with what I have. I’m just hoping the weather lives up to my wardrobe’s expectations.
Shirt from Mango, Trousers from H&M, Bag from Dior, Belt from Hermes, shoes from M&S.
A sales assistant in Reiss commented on how nice she thought my outfit was. She said she really loved the shoes, and asked where I’d got them from. I was very pleased to be able to tell her that I got them for £29.50 from M&S (I had a money off coupon). said she couldn’t believe it and that they looked so high end.
I like to mix high end with high street. The art of dressing well is styling an outfit well, not just throwing money at it.
Money can definitely buy you happiness ~ but it can’t buy elegance 😂.
I saw someone on instagram I think it was, the other day say “they’d rather be crying in a Ferrari, than smiling on a bike 🚲 and it cracked me up.
They’re probably not wrong…😬😂
…I’m joking!! I’m joking!!
Once my constipation had unclogged, and everything settled back into its normal rhythm, I was back in jeans.
It wouldn’t be wise to attempt them during, because that’s when pancaking and leaks are more likely.
Top and jeans from M&S, Shoes from Kate Spade.
Back in the trouser game 🥰
Top from Intimissimi (if you are going to mainland Europe this summer buy them there, they are half the price of the ones in England), Jeans and Shoes from M&S
I’ve had such a good week. I’ve pottered around the garden, and got my steps in cutting the grass (7 thousand to be exact). My gardener is back after 7 months off, so I feel more inclined to do some, and not be overwhelmed by it. I am not a natural gardener.
I’m really pleased he is feeling better, and I’m really very grateful he’s back helping me.
I went for a fabulous facial massage, and I did a shift at the food bank. Something for everyone in there.
I’m not into injectables or any age delaying stuff, it’s just not for me. I wouldn’t know where to start for one thing, and I’d definitely not know when to stop! I’d be the Bride of Wildenstein in no time! 😬😂
But I heard about this lovely face massage and thought that even if it doesn’t actually do much to anti age you it’d still be a nice treatment to have.
And I felt I owed myself one after that disastrous trip to Champneys back in February.
And I was right, it was utterly dreamy. Do I look any better? Doubtful. But did it feel good? Absolutely glorious as it happens! Will definitely be booking in again.
***********
*I saw that billionaire “space flight” yesterday, and thought how monstrously distasteful and tacky it was.
Imagine having all that money and just spending it going to space for two minutes pretending it was an all woman girl power “crew” when really they were just passengers for a 2 minute space taxi ride.
What sort of soulless, narcissistic, self absorbed prick do you have to be to do that so publicly while the world is in such a terrible state.
I’d like to think that if I had that sort of money I’d try to make the world better place…actually, I do that now with the tools I have, so I’m pretty sure that I would.
I volunteer for a number of charities and organisations, I really enjoy it, it gives me purpose and pleasure. I would definitely recommend people do something joyful and meaningful on a voluntary basis, it’s really good for the soul.
Have a fabulous Easter weekend. Xx
I’ll be here trying to keep the weeds at bay.